Take A Breath, Take It In

It has probably been a month since I posted anything. I have felt a lack of inspiration in all aspects of my life. I lost myself.

How could I possibly write about anything if my heart wasn't in it? I had many moments over the past month of whether I should relaunch my blog on a different website or if I would just quit blogging all together. There use to be a time when I would look at things multiple times a day and think to myself "wow, that would make a great post." and lately I haven't been feeling like that at all.

Quite frankly, I hadn't felt like myself in a long time. 

I don't know whether it was time for a break from all "responsibilities" that I needed or was it that I just wasn't interested in blogging anymore. How could a woman of so many words, have so little to stay.

I had to do some good old soul searching for a bit. I don't think I am quite back to where I want to be, but hey, the first part was taking the intiative to write this post. 

Sometimes I need to remind myself to take time for myself and unplug. I am constantly worrying and working, being apart of the "adult world" that I forget what I am doing it all for. How depressing of a thought is that? I'm sure everyone feels like this from time to time. Where you have to remind yourself what it is exactly that you like to do, what is it that makes you, you.

I want so much more for myself. I want to find a hobby that makes my mind easy. I want to sit on my porch and truly take in the world around me. I want to listen to the rain on the roof, with a candle lit in my living room and sit in total silence. I want the mornings to turn cool, so that I can take long walks in solitude. I want to get excited about life again and remember that there is only the one life that we are given. It's our choice what we do with it and how we spend it. 

"Some people feel the rain, Others just get wet"

I want to better myself as a person. I want to love selflessly, I want to laugh genuinely, I want to be surrounded by good people, making memories for a lifetime. I want to dig my feet in the sand and listen to waves crashing.

I am in the process of finding the spark that makes me the person I am. That K fell in love with. Something people can see in the glimmer of my eye and think 
"wow she is wild"